When i woke up she was near the hospital bed. A tear on her cheek , hand in hand. Told her to Come near me , out her head on my chest and i said " sorry i fcked up again but don't worry I'm okay 😊" when she heard this she hit the back of my head just like she was saying "yes scared me you moron" . She tighten my hand stronger and told me " we both know you are destroying yourself. And I know who you are deep inside you , whatever happen just don't loose who you are".